Yes yes…I know I am a fake, a show off, a self-centered, selfish loser… The good thing (or the bad) is that I knew it all along… I truly believe it. The only problem is I just never bothered enough to change. Confessing that just MAYBE I would want the change, but also confessing that seemingly I am not able to, I can’t. Hence, the self glorifying adjective, “loser”.