My Want, My Need

I want to shout, not whine
I want to be a man and not this swine
I want to laugh and I want to cry
I want to be sane, at least try

I tried and lost, and lost the plot
In the middle of nowhere, I want some light
Its winter, I’m naked and stark
Can’t you light that candle for me, it’s too dark

I want love not despair
I want you right here
All I have is some breath and some pity
I want you; I want you, to want me

I too want to see the light at the ends
I want to straighten all the bends
I want the gods to set me free
I still want you, and want you to want me.

In Interest Of General Public

to all the proud youth of the country who cant stop blaming the politicians n bureaucrats for the deplorable state of our nation.
if you are so so frustrated n concerned abt all the bullshit going on, y dont YOU do sumthing? why dont YOU join politics or civil services or sum ngo? why dont u TRY n get into the muck n TRY cleaning it up rather than complaining all day long? why do YOU run for big paypackets n mnc's n gre's instead of doing all this nonsense? not being all able to do it is another thing. not even TRYING to get into the gutter is another. start doing. else stop bitching
god bless you all. god bless our country

Love Star

There is a man who still wonders
Why the green leaves turned ashes
In front of his eyes, he saw
In the midst of spring, he saw, his ashes

The river, that was clear, will turn red
There is nothing you can do
And you shall see a silhouette, the man
Walking , willing to drown in the river, the river of love

The brothers will still look out for him
The brothers, they are the only ones
But he’ll still be wondering, lost in the woods
About the lies, leaves and where the river stood

And up above in the sky, tomorrow
If you see a new star, it’ll shine the brightest
Cos the man who went on to become the star
Still wants his love to know, he exists , now forever far

And when you know everything you lived for is gone
And when the one plays different songs
Its time to carry on, carry on
But he waits, maybe till he knows the song

Our promise

And so I sit, never thought this day will come
Never knew where this bolt came from
Dreams gone crazily haywire , or is it all real
It’s a sad sad life, silly god gave a bad deal

Life where are you?
Cant u hear me? I need you
U promised me love, I did too
Then why, why is everything blue?

Last time we met there was still shine in your eyes
I still went weak in my knees
The warmth was there in your lovely hands
Or was I just hoping, time just stands

I was always ready to forgive, nobody asked for it though
I was always ready to hold you, through highs and low
But you had other plans, in which only you figured
I knew it, why did I still stuck around, scared

Life where are you?
Cant u hear me? I need you
U promised me love, I did too
Then why, why is everything blue?

I AM

I AM BOMB
READY TO EXPLODE
I AM A SEED
SHOOTING OUT, A FLOOD

I AM A REBEL
GUNNING IN THE DARK
THEN A CRAZY LOVER
RUNNING CRAZY IN THE PARK

I AM A CONFUSED
SWITCHING PATHS, ACTUALLY LOST
I AM A VISION
THERE I SEE, FAR, A DISTANT POST

NOW A TREE I AM
COVERING SOME, GROWING WITH FEET ON THE GROUND
A SAINT I AM
ALMOST SUMMIT, WISDOM, CLARITY ALL AROUND

I AM A MOUNTAIN TOP
NOTHING IS WHAT I SEE
NOW SIX FEET UNDER
OR ASHES IN AIR AND SEA

I AM A LEGEND, I AM BLOOD
I AM LIFE, I'M ALIVE
COS'I LOOKED EYE TO EYE AND SAID
I AM

where are you

where has all the love gone
is it buried deep inside your heart
and where have all the seasons dawned
where is the spring after winter part

i tried, turned every stone i could
tried, burnt every bone i could
why i still couldn't find the love that was there
blinked and gone it was,don't know where

i was bold, now cold and yellow
the colours were all bright and mellow
and while it may hurt less to die
i just dont want you to ever say goodbye

Brothers Forever

Another One. For my brothers, my darlings.( Sorry yaar if I ever hurt you people. Now let me sleep)

My one and only, sticking with me through thick and thin..
Taking part in my life, rather being my life, and cleansing every sin..
A man, blood brother, asking me to listen to some songs, day and night..
A man never leaving my side, even after a fight..
Man trying to make me like trance, what he likes..
Guys thumping the bass on beautiful black bikes..
Am I still asleep?

A man walking slowly, with mafioso hair, slowest I’ve ever seen..
Another throwing around questions, maybe the girls would be keen..
This guy kicking around anything he finds, bless him his god I wish, the red fan..
And another, never giving a straight answer, playing godly on lan..
I don’t want to wake up.

And the sentimental of all, always sipping tea, never sleeping at night..
And there comes the guy looking macho on a bullet, throw some light..
Where is the bearded man I think, always made me laugh, always jumped around..
At home said the biggest of us all, who always paid for me, still with me I found..
I wish it is not a dream. Or I will dream another one.

Lines On A Forehead

Strolling down the uptown boulevard
Saw a huge gate, house lined with trees
Some big shot officer, the guard said
Family having time together he sees

Tried to peep in, some lights on
They were in the same room alright
Dad reading the state affairs
And mom watching the prime night

The kids were having a fight
One crying, the other stealing a cake
Here another one, the nanny said
But can’t have love in the sugar you take

The guard ended his duty, he hurried
And into the dark street he hopped
I tried following him, saw a silhouette
Of a man, bent to pick a few coins he dropped

And he went home to what looked like a shed
Kids scrambled for a hug, wife giving a kiss
And the man of the house beamed with joy
Opened the bag for a grand dinner, a fish

As the elder forced his brother to eat
He saw his father, dark cracked lines on his forehead
But a content smile below, and weary but content eyes
And they all shared the last piece of bread.

A Dream in Heaven

One for the people who made the most memorable times of my life.

Every time I look under the tree
A face flashes by,smiling at me
And everytime a look at the empty glass of tea
Some stares pass by, like a Frisbee

Into the dark hole in the sun, I want to go
Before I get erased from their memories
From sands of time I should pass till the last
Before I am out of their heart’s ferries

I sleep hugging the wall,
And pulling my pillow and sheets every hour
Feeling someone near me
A delusion I know, not woken up even by a cold shower

A loud bang at the door, and I wake up
Dead in the night, i realize, and the dream in my head
And then I hear another sound
Of a few bikes passing by for food, and the dream in my head

Into the dark hole in the sun, I want to go
Before I get erased from their memories
From sands of time I should pass till the last
Before I am out of their heart’s ferries

And maybe I will abuse in everything I say
And will get slapped around, in the office
How am I to explain, how we abused
Be it for a plane, or call or toffees

And everytime I eat, I will haste
For a few hands that would grab it soon
And then with a sigh, I will realize
A white plate, an apple and a silver spoon

The Witness

I am in a hut
I am in a bungalow
I walk the red carpet
Seeing everything and nothing, real slow

With red and glowing eyes
I walk the filthy street
And in a rich lady’s lap I lie
And sometimes licking a beggar’s feet

I get beaten black and blue
And I do bite hard and true
Sometimes on a leash, sometimes free
Alone I roam, or in two or three

I will be everywhere, anywhere
Watching the spectacles, the joy and agony
Watching the world, everything they do
God’s eyes on earth, watching you too.

God Mode

Get into my Phantom
Where do you think you are going
I call the shots here
Not happy? Ok, bring him my Boeing

Yeah I live my life in god mode
I am the king, the lord
All my roads lead to heavens door
I am me, in god mode

I will get you too soon
Trying to run from me
The sheriff is mine too, a loon
Where will you hide from me

Cos I live my life in god mode
I am the king, the lord
All my roads lead to heavens door
I am me, in god mode

They tried to kill me
But I’m not easy to diffuse
Didn’t like hell, so I am back
Giving them their last blues

Living my life as a live bomb
Follw me cos’ I don’t turn back
All my roads lead to heavens door
I am me, in god mode.

When he laughs, I am with him.

When he cries, I am with him.

When i laugh, he is with me.

When i cry, I am alone.

And the world keeps on turning

I remain, I stand, turning and burning.

Here is a GK question.

Where on earth would you record the highest annual average rainfall?

Ans. Toilet, EG block, H-6, SVNIT Surat.

Maybe I’m Done

Vanquished love and vanquished soul
Bleak beneath this smiling face
I tried to hide but these lines showed up
Trying to grey this black’s race.

My fingers are crossed,
My eyes are moist.
Too much struggle against them
Took myself down the hoist

Blood no more in my heart or veins
Can’t hide this pain, this sorrow
Darling I am no more
River is dry, up and thorough.

Maybe I’m done; I don’t want to get out
Can’t go on though, no one saw it through
Nobody understood, but I deserved
I’m done, goodbye, I love you.

The Misfits

Do you talk to yourself in the night
Or just watch yourself, a hopeless sight
And when you watch the yellow light, hanging
You see yourself, your soul instead

Then you are just like me
One of the few,
God’s mistakes on earth
Misfits of the world
Now and through

And when alone, that you always are
Do you want a ghost beside, to talk
You, who checked under the bed every night
Now want a ghost to stalk

Keeping a blade under your pillow
Wishing you or someone cut you down
But a few faces flash by
Sleep evades, you drown

Just like me, we are not bad
Weird, not disloyal, we are sad
Misfit for the world and that is true
Life wont be fair,
Now and through

Leaving friends and foes, just like that
Just like that, in their eyes I know
We know why it happens, only us
Still taking on our faces, every blow

Choosing to hide
Get laughed at and shunned
Life is not fun, not for us
Better to be gunned

Crybabies we are not, neither cowards nor mad
Far away from mean we are
Never want to hurt you friends
Justifications we have none
Just misfits, waiting to sleep
When all this ends.

You Win

My halo fading
Blurring above my head
I reached for it, wanting it to stop
And all I could is to wait
Wait and watch it drop

All I could do is to wait and try
All I could do is to wait and cry
Gathering the last wisps of what remained

I took the world for granted
Life said you are here to stay
You there, are for granted
And life didn’t have time for me

All I could do is to wait and try
All I could do is to wait and cry
Gathering the last wisps of what remained

My life was once mine, no more
It doesn’t care, I complain, an eyesore
In vain, I hear a sound, final shot
You will lose before me
No matter what

Everything and everyone got ahead
After that, when life got time
It asked about me
My very being

Slowly I will accept the truth
Slowly I will fade away
From memories and from time
Slowly I will cry away

It is You

A kiss when I close my eyes
A touch that lasts for a while
A help when I have a fear
And hug when I drop a tear

A smile when I feel down
Word when I fret and frown
A hand to hold in the evening
A face to wake upto every morning

Someone who is my world
Someone to whom I’m the whole world
That was the way it was
And will be, for now and always

Thank you

I love you
That’s what I need in life
That’s what I want in life
That’s what I know in life
And life is sweet

Your love
That’s what I care in life
That’s what I feel in life
That’s what I love in life
And you, my love,
That’s what my life is all about

Thank you for loving me
Thank you for being with me
For all the lovely memories, thank you
And for the time to come
Thank you for all the happiness I could find
Thank you for making me realize
That I am alive.

And now you my love
You are my life.